You don't change
For starters, I got Imperial!! Must admit, pretty anticlimatic, seeing that I already knew it halfway through JPA Camp =(. Ah well, now just hoping for the JPA scholarship.
And since I've gotten news of Imperial, I keep on thinking, When I go there, I'll be like this, and be like that. I'll be this kind of person, and what not.
But I somehow feel, "No matter what they wish for, no matter how far they go, people can never be anything but themselves. That's all" (credit : HM) . And I feel that it's true. I can go to UK, but when it comes down to it, I'll still be Jon. My interests and friends may change, but I'll never be able to run away from the person I am.
I guess that makes me frightened. A lot. Sigh. I've got so many dreams and wishes about uni life. All I can do is hope, and hope hard.
And I've just came back from JPA. Won't go into detail, but there was this moment where we were asked to draw a "life-chart" where we plot our lives, from 0 - 25, the y-axis measuring how happy or sad we were. And you know, there was this sobering moment where I saw everybody's graph was just like mine, there were moments of happiness, and moments of sadness. It was like a scene from What A Wonderful World. Sigh. And what was really interesting, was when I recalled the happy times in my life, it was this really great feeling. And yet, when I recalled the sad and unhappy times in my life, there wasn't this feeling of despair or great unhappiness, just a dull ache that said, Look, You've been there, you survived it, and you got out stronger. Interesting how the we remember the highs much more vividly than we remember the lows eh. (Sorry, can't really phrase this sentence better, I'm listening to Joe Hisaishi now, and it's ruining my concentration.)
Sigh. What's going to happen to me and the people I know here? I've never been someone who craves for tons of friends, just a group or two or good friends and I'm happy. Which is why I tend (nowadays at least) to value my friendships a lot. So what's going to happen when I go over there? Even a friend (on the phone) was saying, When you get there, we won't be able to talk like this anymore.
Sigh. Who knows what the future holds eh.
Ciao.
Joe Hisaishi - Shoot the Violinist
Sudirman - Warisan
Nickel Creek - When you come back down (Oh god, I love this song)
Why doesn't anyone comment anymore?
posted by Jonathan Chin @ 4:13 AM
2 Comments
2 Comments:
I think I did read somewhere that a study was done on it, and the way our brain is set up, we really do tend to remember the good more than the bad.
Either way, you're going to have to make some new friends when you arrive. First couple of days when you know nobody are the hardest, but once you start getting to know people, it gets a lot better. Though for me I find that I'm actually by myself a lot, everyone else is taking different classes and such, and uni classes can be quite huge, so you might not get to know anyone else in the classroom as well.
Anyways, all the best to you.
I nt sure whethe u will agree wit me or nt..Sometime we will change but whether forget or remember ur interest or frens is depend on urself..It is definitely harder for u to keep in touch wit frens at here frequently(can make it through facebook..^_^),but i think u r the type who will remember who is sincere to u...Anyway,make sure u will REMEMBER me..hehe..Good luck to u for ur new life at UK..^_^
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