Bored

Sigh. The past week has been so incredibly boring and soul draining. Due both to lack of money to go out, and people being busy. (Okay, there's another reason behind it, but I won't go into it)

Been doing a lot of gaming, sleeping, reading and cycling to fill in the time. Seriously, the monotony is incredibly fcked up. Discounting the small mamak sessions, there has been nothing else to upset the routine.

Not to say that I don't enjoy these, but still. Sigh. Anybody wants to go out somewhere that doesn't cost money? Cause I'm out of ideas.

So much free time has given me a lot of time to think things over. Recently went to Monash to ask about registration. It'll be my back up if I don't get Imperial. Let's hope I don't have to study in Malaysia (Okay, I sound like a total snob. I don't find anything wrong with studying in Malaysia, but I really want to go to Imperial so...)

I constantly wonder, how will my uni experience be like? I really don't want to sound like an obsessive anime fan, but good god I hope it'll turn out like Honey and Clover. There's something very attractive about financially poor students trying to scrounge and make the best of their uni life with similar-fated friends.

I guess I'm just really worried about the social aspect of it. I'm just looking for that ease that comes naturally for a group of close friends. Sigh. We'll see how things go. I expect the first few months to be absolute shit though, with me being shy as fck.

Sigh. I've fallen in love with Spitz and Suga Shigao. They're one of the few bands that I love even though they have absolutely nonsensical lyrics. They always seem to convey the feelings and meaning of the song through the song's music and vocals. Go look them up. Good god, I can't stop listening. Namida, is absolutely perfect, with it's tone of longing.

On a sidenote, sorry to the people who comment on my blog. I really appreciate the comments, but I'm not the type to reply to them with comments. Thank you. (cept you Ari. Now go and dig a hole and drown in your phailed emoness at this rejection. =D And damn, how come you didn't come back to Malaysia this time? ==)

Been listening to Avril Lavigne a lot too recently. I absolutely loathe her newest album, but her past one, "Under My Skin" is excellent with loads of teen angst. Just my type of music =). Take Me Away, Forgotten and How Does it Feel scream of excellence. The moment I heard the lyrics of How Does it Feel, I knew I'd love the song.

"I'm not afraid of anything
I just need to know I can breathe
I don't need much of anythign
But suddenly
Suddenly
I am small and the world is big
All around me is fast moving
Surrounded by so many things
Suddenly
Suddenly
How does it feel
to be different from me?"

Good god.