Birthday

You know, I'm just going all out and admit to this :

I came back, and kept on thinking about writing a long good post about my thoughts and feelings on my birthday. I thought of all the phrases I would use, and re-read them from an outsider's view to think of how other people would feel when they read it. I thought of how to invoke melodrama, and great uncertainty.

And now? I just don't fucking want to write a long post. I'll keep it short and simple.

Thanks to all the people who wished me a happy birthday. I still haven't read some of the messages, cause I left my handphone in Chee Yip's car. Will reply tomorrow. Thanks in advance.

And another, today. was. FUCKING. awesome. Seriously, it felt as if the whole day was absolutely perfect. From 12 midnight, in the shower, coming out to see the birthday greetings on my phone, to waking up at 6.30, swearing and cursing myself and my stupidity of planning something in the fucking morning, to worrying when the rain started poring, to going to FRIM with college people and the awesome canopy walk, the hilarious (and admittedly, sometimes frustrating) walk back down to the car, to the leech fucking biting me in my hand, till it swelled up with my blood and Chew and Chee Yip coming up with all sorts of ways to kill it "Eh, try rubbing it against the car metal. It's hot and it might just die off" to "Eh, use the car lighter. Burn it!!!" to coming up to me with a toothpick and a smile (oh good god), to the Giant Milk Tea with the hilariously small straws, chilling out and laughing, to the hour long trip home.
Then it was off to dinner with the family, and the surprise present that came later.

I've been feeling pretty depressed the past few weeks, and today made me feel re-energized again. Thanks Pranav, for organizing (SEE. I am not bitching about today like you said I would).

People who know me know that I tend to draw my inspiration from the things I watch and listen to. I'm 18, and I find myself increasingly in the same situation as the characters in Solanin. Sigh. Memories of 5cm/s is coming harder and harder now that I'm moving on to the next phase in my life.

And I'm scared. If people coming together and then splitting up and moving on their own separate paths is a norm of life, then will it be the same again for me? Will I forget the certain few college friends that I like when I go into university? I've experienced it once, and I hated it. Will I have to learn how to move on again?

Sigh.

I'm off to sleep.

Ear food -
Rise - Origa (Composer Yoko Kanno)
Namida - Spitz
Hachimitsu - Suga Shikao

"Most general fiction is like pop music. Nice to listen to, but not emotionally or intellectually stirring. Though you do get the rare gems, those are few and far between"
- Amy Leoh =p

Sigh. I've got so many things I'm interested in getting involved in, I have no idea how long I'll be able to be interested in each one.

Reading (I doubt I'll be giving this up any time soon. And it's that time of the month again : Allowance! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS. DANCE DANCE DANCE HERE I COME. Or Norwegian Wood =) HARUKI MURAKAMI ADOPT ME PLEASE.)

Japanese Language (Yes, I'm learning it. =P)

Warhammer 40k Table Top(I'm trying to find a way to penetrate into this often elite circle =(

Gaming (Planescape Torment on the way. Excellent, it's like playing a novel. Love the plot. Anybody wants to form a COD4 clan?)

Piano (Learning Dream and To Zanarkand)

Cycling (I've got to train up to try my first century damn it)

Photography (Sigh. I'm so worried about this one)

Manga (LOL. I'm pretty sure I won't be giving this one up neither. Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei is fucking hilarious. I AM IN DESPAIR!!!)

Let's just see how things go.

Mmmmmmmm. Year of spaghetti is excellent.