Sigh.

I tire of all the frivolous small talk and jokes.

I crave for a time where I can sit with a friend and talk about serious, deep stuff, or what the future looks like, or how we continue smiling even when there's so much crap that happens to us on a daily basis.

I'm tired of trying to start a serious conversation, followed by some other person/the person I'm talking to make a joke out of it and start joking around with me.

I'm looking forward to the fireworks tommorow. All I want to do is stand there, take in the beauty of it all, and smile as I tell myself life's going to be just fine.

And god help me if somebody comes up to me and starts talking cock/jokes.

And good god, I want to know more about you. What makes you sad, and more importantly, what makes you happy. I'm getting tired of the shallow conversation we have.