Facebook!

Shit, I've given into the pressure and registered for facebook!

Cept that I gave up a moment after I registered, with all the "you have friend request" bullshit. Fuck it, I'm not going to waste my life doing all the friend request, and photo uploading, and whatever.

So, I'm stuck with an account with my name and email address on it.

And 0 friends.

And 0 photos.

And 0 groups.

Meh. What's the point really? The way people act on it I tell you. As if the number of people on their friend list is their life's score.

"You have 5 friends! YOU PHAILED AT LIFE. JUMP OFF A BRIDGE AND DIE PLEASE."

"You have 500 friends! Now you're like totally awesome. epic win!"

Bullshit. Not to be bragging, but I know I'll have a pretty decent list myself if I really wanted to try. But for what? Half the people I put there, are acquaintances or friends, albeit not close ones. Nonsense. And besides, why the hell would you want to post all your pics up there? Massive invasion of privacy ==

Weekends post-ban from dad, are, as usual, incredibly boring due to me being unable to go out. Thus, I rot. (Oh god I want to go to the zoo. And they'll be going with out me! pissyfying.)

Granted, not as bad as Michelle (lol. it's amazing how to really really bored and (temporarily) lonely people manage to bring some smile into each other's lives just by talking for a while) but still, it's horrible. I actually *gasp* look forward to college. Scary.

And apparently, I'm the guy who swears a lot.

Hrm. That is so fucking not true .

...Point taken. Still, it's not because it's "cool" or I think I'm making myself look big. It's just...habit. Like people saying "lah", I just say Fuck.

Doesn't make me a bad person.....right?

Bah. Who fucking cares. And besides, I really hate those self righteous "nice" people. You know, the type that says :

"Don't swear! It's not good"
"Why you insult your friends like that one? They should be cherished!"
"Friends forever!!!! OUR BOND WILL NEVER DIE (Spoken with such conviction as if it's the gospel truth)
"I love helping people! I like seeing their smiles and t SHUT THE FUCK UP ALREADY.

Oh my god. Fucking goody two shoes are so. incredibly. annoying. Course, some people may say "you're just being jealous". Well no, it's just that these people are so god damn self righteous. Get a grip dumbfucks. Whiny lil muther fuckers.

I'm having a very big vendetta against religious people and what not, but I'm not going to post it up. It's my personal opinion, and putting it up is only going to upset certain people, so I'll refrain.

And seriously, you'd be surprised to find the things that are actually running through people's minds. I was talking to this friend of mine a few days ago, and I found out that he felt exactly the same as I did, with the whole "lack of connection" and what not. Surprising, but like I said, public personas are usually at odds with who somebody truly is.

Which is why even though I appear to be this swearing, cursing, porn-crazy, girl-crazy perverted unsentimental (is there such a word?) geek nerd on the outside, on the inside, I'm actually... exactly that. Oh crap. =(

Ear food! (because I haven't posted these for so long)
Gravity - Wolf's rain ending. <--- Listen to the lyrics, and think about the meaning of the title. It's so incredibly awesome when you find out.
Awakening - Mae. Watch it on the 5 cm amv. I died and went to heaven when I watched this.
Times of scar - Michael Gluck (piano version) I'm learning this =D
Dream of the shore near another world - Love this!! CC soundtrack is awesome. Yasunori Mitsuda is a bloody genius.
Dilemma, Lost pieces, Radical Dreamers - The unstolen jewel - You HAVE to listen to these. CC pwns damn it.

2 last things. I've been thinking of taking up photography. I love watching the skies and clouds and sunsets and what not, or the wind breezing through the grass. I've been looking some of these photos up on flickr, and I find them absolutely breathtaking. It'd be cool to immortalized these sights of wonder I witness on a near daily basis. specially the whole red-streaked sky thing.

Lastly, I wonder, what do you guys do when you're feeling really lonely? Personally, I'll just put Honey and clover on my dvd, open up msn and start looking for people to chat with, or open up my phone's gallery of images and videos of the people I know. Usually a mixture of all 3. Meh. It helps me from going all extremely depressed. How bout you guys? Anybody care to share on my comment box? (No, it's not a request, it's a statement. Get to it bitches)

Ciao