Friends and Acquaintances

So, taking a break from studying for my last paper tommorow.

Remember when I said that 2009's going to be a good year?

I was wrong.

This term's papers are THE fucking hardest I've ever done. Seriously. Every single damn paper is so much harder than anything any of us has done, the usual routine is to come out of the exam hall, eyes wide open saying "What the fuck just came out?"

Z. The thing is, I can't find myself caring much. Sure, it would suck if I got B's but hey, fuck it. I've did what I could.

Anyways, moving on, I've been reading some random people's blogs (link leads to link after link so...=D), and whenever I see those filled with party pictures, clubbing and what not, I sort of wonder.

Is there something wrong with me?

I mean, fine, I'm not the most social guy ever (lol. average sociability is probably a compliment already, if not an exaggeration). I absolutely detest meeting new people (the awkwardness is so horrible), I don't like going out with people I don't feel absolutely comfortable with, and I don't like crowded places.

I mean, my version of a perfect weekend would be :

10 am : wake up + breakfast
11 am : Computer + ps2-ing
2 pm : Go out for lunch
3 pm : Cycle, preferably under super sunny weather (yep, I'm weird that way)
7 pm : Going up to the hill to see the sunset (with a friend)
8 pm : Go out for a movie, or dinner with a bunch of friends.
12 pm : Start reading books on my phone under my blanket in my freezing cold room

Damn. I sound like some boring old fart. But the thing is, my idea of fun is just hanging out with close friends, sitting around watching stuff or playing ps, or kicking back at a mamak/restaurant with them.

I absolutely detest the whole partying thing. Dancing and mixing with a bunch of people I don't really know? Not exactly my idea of fun.

Besides, thinking about it now, all the things that have make me smile when I think about them are these very things. Sitting around just talking. Watching movies. Sleeping at the back of a friend's car while we went for lunch.

I know, I'm missing out on opportunities to make friends and what not.

But I think I'm happy with the way I'm living now. I can't give two fucks about making lots of friends. Give me a close group of friends, and I'm happy. Sure, you could have both of them at the same time, but hell, I suck at meeting new people.

And as the title of this post goes, friends and acquaintances. Thinking about it, acquaintances wise, I have quite a number. But hell, friends?

But how do you define friends anyway?

They're the people I don't have to think twice before saying anything . They're the people who I can sit with in silence, and feel absolutely comfortable. They're the people who I can make fun of, knowing that they're okay with it. They're the people that I just feel so at home with, I don't have to constantly evaluate "Am I fun enough?" or "Am I being annoying?". Besides, they're the people with whom the conversation just sort of flows. They're the people who make me feel as if that I'm not the weird anti social person I think I am.

Like I said. I don't get what's so nice about drinking, or dancing, or clubbing. Give me a steamboat dinner over those any day. I don't need alcohol to have fun.

Cheers.
(Lol. Exams are almost over! WHEEEEEEEE)
OB night is so going to be pokemon themed. I'll get the committee to dress up as the starters, and I'll be fucking (sorry, I can't make any post swear free) Pikachu. Then for our passing on ceremony, we'll throw our pokeballs on the floor,

"I choose you, *insert new committee member here*

It will be fucking hilarious.
Yes. Yes it will.

And yes. I'm a nerd that way =D