Post SPM

Well. Its over. The months of pain, of work, of tears (seriously. I was so nervous), of frustration and the feeling of impending doom. I can't remember how many times I felt that I was heading for an execution. The many times that I've just cried, imagining myself getting B's or C's. Overachieving? Yeah. Sissified? Yeah. Worth it? Hell yeah.

I can say that I tried my hardest. I can't say the same for my PMR, but I really did try my best for this exam, and I have no regrets.

And yet, there's one thing I regret. My guy friends will know what I'm talking about. I got this....problem....a few months before the SPM. I was so depressed, I could have slit my wrist. Yes, I'm always saying suicide is stupid and gay, but if you've been what I've gone through, you'll feel the same. And no, it wasn't because of some stupid emotional stuff or anything. It was a bloody physical thing , and it really smashed my will. I was so distracted, I would just live day by day like it was a punishment or something. And funnily enough, I was happy that SPM came. It took my mind off things , ya know.

Now that its over...well...the numb feeling is returning. I hope I don't succumb to depression again. I don't want it again.

Anyway, some post-SPM things I'm going to do =)

1) Learn to play Tori no Uta on piano (And no, jap songs really do suck k, most of them anyway. Kitaro on the other hand, pwns. And screw you pretty boy/girl bands. Using your looks to gain publicity in the music industry is just downright stupid)

2) Buy the bible, read it , and maybe learn what religion truly is about. I guess I'm trying to find solace in God =) (And no, I don't want anybody to come up to me and either a) Offer to train me in the Christian teachings or b) Ask me why I'm buying the bible. This is religion, and its a very personal thing to me. Butt off bastards.)

3) Get a PS2. It is God's mandate. He made this magnificent creation, and I'm sure he wants everybody to enjoy his wonderful creation. Let us all revel in its wonderfulness!

4) Stop my addiction. Okay, I'm coming clean with what it is.
I have an addiction to.....looking at.... corn . Yeah, its a really bad addiction and I really really need to stop it. Its eating away at me from the inside.

5) Get a big ass novel, sit down and lose myself in it. Yeah, I'm a nerd that way, better than dumasses going around saying "OI. CB ULTI LA DIU." pft.

6) Go out with friends! MANY MANY OUTINGS! OMFG.

7) Get ready for college I suppose.

8) Fix my stupid storm mp4, and burst my eardrums by continuously blasting music. =)

9) BUY A HEADPHONE! OMFG. Yeah.

10) Oh wait. Was I supposed to say some humorous last liner here? My bad.

Cheers dude!