Social life on hold

*Reflections post + daily post*

OMFG. Its been a week since I last posted anything! Crap. I know, i know, most of you are thinking that blog abandonment and blogging laziness is creeping in, but ITS NOT. The truth is, the past week just passed like a blur to me, ya know. So much shit's going on. Mainly, its bout my addiction (will post later) and well, SPM.

SPM's exactly a month away. The big one, the one that we've all been working towards. I've been lazing around since the trials, doing half-hearted attempts at revising, but its all been crap. So, now, I'm sick of that crap. I've got one more month, and I'm goin to stretch myself to the limit. One month of intensive studying, and it'll be over (at least till college).The more I think about it, the more i realize how important this is going to be for my future.

And I'm scared.

I truly am. I do not know what the future holds for me, nor will I know how i'll fare in this exam. If i don't get straights, there goes the scholarship. There goes my dreams of being .... I don't know. Outstanding. I really do want to score in this exam, and I'm going to give it all I've got. This is one of the few times I can prove myself.

I can still remember back to my PMR. I lazed about, not really doing studying. I was confident (hrm, over confident sounds better)that I would get straight A's. I guess my head was inflated over the countless times I got number 2. I thought, if I couldn't get straights, who else could (apart from Yong xin la). In the end, I got a B. I guess that's punishment from the holy one above XD. Darn, I'm not ashamed to admit it, the moment I saw it, my heart broke. Seriously. I cried the whole day, ashamed of myself. Yeah yeah, a guy crying, lame right? Well, no. I don't think so, so fuck off if you do.

I'm determined not to make the same mistakes. My brother got 9A's and a single B. I'm going to break that record. I'm going to win him for once, and get my straights damn it. Not for my father, not for my mother, not for anybody. Only for me.

Regarding bout our future, what do you want to be when you grow up? I was having dinner with my uncles yesterday, and from what I've heard, the future's one hell of a scary thing. But the thing I'll remember the most is this phrase

"When you go to college, studying as you know it will never be the same. No more will it be forced, it'll be fueled by your interest. And that's where's your mind'll wander."

Darn. I'm so pumped out right now.

Oh yeah, 2 other phrases i really like (totally not related to the topic XD)

"The only thing that we can predict about the future is its unpredictability"

another one, this one is from bleach

"If i take up my sword, I can protect you. But if i hold my sword, i cannot embrace you"

Si beh!

Oh yeah, last thing before i resume studying. Ya know, to achieve your goals, you really have to work for it. And in working for it, you're actually sacrificing your other stuff in your life. Right now? Now, i'm studying like crazy for SPM. And my social life is on hold. Seriously. I used to go out cycling, or with friends, just go do stuff. Now i'm stuck in my house day in and day out studying ==. Ah well, its only till SPM.

Cheers guys.
Study hard ya, ya dumasses =)

*Btw, read Bleach. Like, omg. Its fantastic. Hell yeah. And orihime is hot!.
Watch slam dunk too. It pwns really really hard.