Life pushes you around

Let me tell you something. Life isin't a bed of roses for you idealistic bitches out there. I used to be one.

I used to think everybody would be tolerant. I can say shamelessly that I'm incredibly tolerant of everything that goes around. I've been fucked by people, I've been insulted by people saying "Don't be stupid." Or "You've got no brains so shut the fuck up". I smile back. I don't fight. I don't feel anger (much). People that are irritating, I put up with it. I don't shout, I don't push, I don't talk back. I take it in stride. People have said stuff behind my back. "You see that jonathan, so chuen. Think he get number 2 very good meh?" I got that when i said "Yes!" when i gt back my moral paper (decent marks) Do I care? I used to, when I was in Form 3. I was insecure, and not confident about myself. Now? Say I'm chuen, say i suck, say that i think i'm god and i should be humble. I don't care. You who don't know me, don't talk about me. I know I'm chuen. Thats me. You don't like it, don't accept it. Nobody's asking about your opinion about me. I'm aware of who I am, I don't need reminding. I'm proud of my chuenness. If the 5 cengal dudes say something serious bout me, Like i'm too playful. Fine. I'll accept that. i've known you for 5 years, i know each and everyone of you as you know me. I'll stop.

But. Life isint that way. Just because you are tolerant doesn't mean other people are. The world isin't going to be nice and everything, just because you are. NO. It pushes you around. A big event happened quite recently. It changed my views. There are people in the world, who get offended by the slightest thing you say. They misunderstand what you say, getting angry instead. They won't take it in stride.

I know , for I have experienced it. And let me tell you, the fear that is in you will be so intense you feel like breaking down. You won't know how to handle these situations. Which why its important to gain experience in the real world. Ya think your matured and well-versed in these matters? Think again. Your gonna get shocked when you leave school guys.

But, this event changed my life in more ways then one. It shows me what friends can do. This post is getting long. I'll elaborate in the next one. But remember this. What can't kill you will only make you stronger. True beyond belief

And btw, for those who said about me thinking i'm keng cuz got number 2. Let me say this. Yes. I do think I'm good for gettin number 2. I worked for it, I achieved it, so I'm not going to say "Oh, I'm just lucky." Thats asian culture -.-" Being humble without meaning it. Its crap.